I created this today. I felt the need to express how the loss of a friend affected me. I am sad but he truly was a butterfly that rested on my heart.

My fitness goals are:

1. Drink more water
2. Eat healthier
3. Work out
4. Take care of me.

A new gym is opening Feb 18th and I ma looking forward to it. I have a friend who is a fighter and has lost a lot of weight so that he could be in a fight, and works daily to stay in shape. He has made me a offer to help me get back on track, tone up and shape my body. Today I took him up on his offer. I have basically three weeks to start getting ready. He wants me to spend time doing cardio till the gym opens. I will need to discipline myself to getting to bed early, getting up, eating a good breakfast, doing cardio and get my mindset to start working out. He said we will be working out early in the morning, because that is when he works out. I am looking forward to this. Tomorrow is day one.

Well I got sick on Xmas day about 4 hours after dinner. I was sick for several weeks with a virus that attacked my joints and muscles. It took several Dr. visits, medication and time and I thought I was doing better. Days off the medication, alert, getting things done, when all of a sudden I am sick again. I have had horrible headaches and tummy aches for a few days. Today being the worse. I felt like I was going to pass out and I am hurting in my joints again as well as a horrible headache!
I am wanting to start working out, doing some light yoga and I have been working on eating better but it seems every time I try to get on track I get sick. I am TIRED of this.

 

I told the universe that I wanted to get back on my spiritual path. The universe sent me a person to remind that I wanted to walk my path and needed a refresher. The teachngs are somewhat different than what I was teaching myself but i really feel it was the path that I was trying to find on my own and didn't. The new teachers that are walking beside me, guiding me gently allowing me to grow once again in a way my heart feels is right are part of a tribe. I am opening my soul to their wisdom and beliefs. Each step an alightment of consiousness of who I am and where I want to be. The path is waiting and I shall enmbrace the learnings with an open heart and mind.

Today I choose to find my spiritual path. I walk with the goddesses in love and light. I will take care of me as I walk this path. Doing what my heart leads me to do.

Had another night of no sleep last night but today I woke up at 9:30.  Made a good breakfast, cleaned the apt some. Watered all my plants that I bought Thursday and re potted Friday my apt is feeling  more  cozy.  


I watched Mirror Mirror yesterday and I really liked it. Thinking today I am going to watch 21 Jump Street if I get more class work completed.

As far as my training goes, I am taking a vitamin, working with a trainer but I need to work on my core. My core is very weak and is causing me too many set backs while training. I need to find a beginning yoga class.